Sunday, April 29, 2007

What If...We Embraced Uncertainty?

"Certainty is the mark of the commonsense life---gracious uncertainty is the mark of a spiritual life." ~Oswald Chambers

I am the epitome of a Type A personality. I am a big thinker and doer. I've learned the worldly lessons of breaking down the big goal into smaller goals, creating endless lists to check off, filling every minute of my schedule with tasks to accomplish. I am the "can do" woman. And...I am completely and utterly flawed.

I don't like uncertainty.

I like to have everything in place; all my ducks in a row. I like to "root" myself in my faith, my family, my community, my career. Stability and accomplishment. That's what I'm good at. I don't like uncertainty. Yet, this year has been a year of uncertainty. But I know deep in my heart this one thing:

God is certain.

As the ebb and flow of life takes place, there He is...our unchanging God. He's the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I flit about from one thing to the next and there He rock, my fortress, my deliverer. Sometimes, I wonder if He gets weary in delivering me from one mess or another that I have gotten myself into. I know I get weary.

The lessons of this past year have been difficult as I balk at all of the uncertainty. He's teaching me to draw nearer to Him. To quit relying on myself. To lean not to my own understanding but acknowledge Him. He will make my paths straight. It's His promise and God can't break a promise.

I think Martha of Bethany was of a Type A, too. I can relate to Martha.